Welcome back Mrs. Snake !
Hahaha..it's coincident that today I also have lots of good feeling and it really woke me up after such a long time daydreaming . I spent 4 hours in the afternoon doing a test to get the scholarship . It was just a piece of cake to me and maybe to all of you . But the most interesting experience I got was the Interview Ground . Truly, I was nearly broken down after leaving the interview room with lots of strict and sharp comments from the interviewer. I had been completely confident with my studying result cause it waw not bad at all . But then, he showed me the one of a strange girl and it made my pride fall down immediately like a snowball rolling down the slope . Never before had I seen such a wonderful result . It was a straight -10 or nearly . Afterwards, he continually asked me a number of questions that I had never had a thought of them before . As the result, I couldn't speak any thing . It looked like he took me to an unbroken ground in my mind . You know what ? At that time, I realized that I was just a dust in a dessert but I didn't know that I was a dust . He convinced me to give myself a second thought about my decision of changing my major . Did I really try my best in my job right now ? ot Did I really love it with all my heart ? The answer is absolutely " no" . I always pursued fantastic dreams , ideal but not true . I ever thought that it would be a motivation for me but it was wrong . In the mean time, I reconsidered my job and a new feeling flashed in my eyes . Why don't we deal with our jobs execellently and find an unexplored place for ourselves instead of daydreaming about a " wonderful land " . I have been making me a fool recently for stupid and tiny reasons . And now I wondered why I let my own life become a bad movie just because of a guy or some tests .From time to time, I went to school without any plans or aims . That's the reason why we can't gain anything after all and we blame everything on our educational system whilse we can make a system for oursleves . That's what I learned from the interview .

 

What do you expect from your days at school?

How can you say we can't gain anything after all?

How can you say the education doesn't have any influence on us?

Are you demanding yourself so much?

At last, is it until now that you recognize we can make ourselves our own study system?

I think we just go to school to internalize some basic knowledge and to know what we should learn more.

We learn from books, ourselves and reality more than from all teachers we've studied with.

 

I really think that there is a misunderstanding here . I don't know why you think I am demanding myself so much . And I have no complaint on the educatioanl system or its influence on us . I totally know that we go to school to internalize basic knowledge . I also don't say that we can't gain anything after all . I think you should reread what I wrote above . My comment above is just my own feeling drawn from my interview . I will answer your questions one by one .
1. You asked me " what I expect from my days at school " . Ok, I expect a good knowledge on every subjects I was taught and that's all . I don't know why you asked me like that . I never intended to get the straight -10 like the girl I modeled on . It's just an example for me to look back to my try in the past .
2. I never mean that we can't gain anything after all . You must have misunderstood my sense . Exactly, I said that " From time to time, I went to school without any plans or aims . That's the reason why we can't gain anything after all and we blame everything on our educational system whilse we can make a system for oursleves " . It is not a complaint anymore . It's just my thinking and I really think that our class should take this into account . Don't you think that someone just go to school to chat and doing sth like that and then borrow the other's notebooks to copy . Isn't it a clear example of having no plans and aims in studying ? I just happened to realize that sometimes I waste my time doing stupid things in school and as the result I gained nothing from them . That's my mean , not that way you thought .
3. I have looked over my comment again and I still couldn't find that I ever said that " the education doesn't have any influence on us " .
4. I am not demanding myself so much . I don't know from which you get this idea . The comment above is what the interviewer told me . He just wanted me to give a head in what I was doing and try my best to deal with it by giving a result of an excellent student . I don't consider it as my purpose . That means it's not because such thing and then I force myself to gain an excellent result at any cost .

Frankly speaking, I don't know why you always think about me as a over -demanding girl . I just feel that I need to pay more attention to my job because that's my career down the line by making my own system . I will be really sad if you feel wrong about me . Maybe it's just b'c the language barrier that I can't express exactly my thinking .Ok, tell me what you're thinking . I am really serious 'bout what I mean b/c I don't to be such a girl in ur mind . Right ?

 

Oh my god! It's you that misunderstood my opinions. I didn't mean what you inferred from my post.

1. My asking was "What do you expect from your days at school ?" . It's just a QUESTION! You said that you sometimes went to school without any plans or aims, right? So I wanted to know what your plans and aims were! That's it!

2. "From time to time, I went to school without any plans or aims . That's the reason why we can't gain anything after all and we blame everything on our educational system while we can make a system for ourselves". Yes! I misunderstood your thoughts at those sentences. As you said, it was the language barrier that you couldn't transfer your thoughts completely and clearly. The way you wrote makes me feel like what I told you. You should have given the clear image of this. But I've understood you. You're right! Our class should take into account their studying. Unless, they can't gain anything. But we are forced to study the subjects that we don't like and that are so boring and difficult to understand. It's not only our fault. It's the fault of teachers and the education system,too!

3. Wasn't it the sentence "We blame everything on the education system" that meant "the education system doesn't have any influence on us"? You should have said "We blame our faults on the education system". It would be clearer.

4. No, I never meant that you had to get that result. I even didn't care about it. But, just a little, from your post, I felt as if you had been demanding yourself: "fantastic or ideal dreams", "aims and plans", " a dust in a desert", "stupid things", etc...You maybe didn't mean that, but the way you wrote made me feel...something like that. ^^

I have never thought you are an over-demanding person. Of course, everyone has his dreams. So do you. So do I. So does the rest of our class. I myself sometimes demand me so much. But then I think it's crazy, so I give in.

You and I must have misunderstood the other's opinions. So I hope we are clear now. However, accept my apologies if you feel sad about my misunderstandings.


I think without misunderstandings, people were never able to understand ...people!

Don't you?